i Learned to Hate Myself Because the World Was Watching

i feel like a loser sometimes

and whenever I do I go back to her

a person who I knew too much

a person who's still familiar in so many ways

maybe that's why friend ship break up are the worst

idk who to go to, to tell how much I fucked up

how much I embrassed myself

how much I care every action I do is being precieved as

I just really hate being precieved

bcz more often than not

i love in my head

and when other people see me outside of my head

im just a big fat ass failure

im just a loser with almost no friends

or a person who's just always left out

a person who's always feeling judged

a person who gives an f about every single thing

they care about how ppl like them

don't like them

how much of a dumbster they r of a person

but i chosed myself bcz I had to

now I'm a traitor

i hate people more than ever

remind me to never tell them stuff

kill me if I ever do so again

ew people hate the people

het me out of this hell hole of life

too tired to wander

too obnixious apparently

everybody hates me and I know that

no matter how much I compensate

assholes will remain assholes

fuck them

I'll just act like I don't give an f

fuck it