My Body

My body

Is never perfect.

My body

Sends me the cues,

My mind ignores.

My body

Has been neglected.

My mind contributes.

The consequences of my own actions

process too late.

My body,

Marked with scars of my own doing.

Ribs and hip bones that are visible,

Cracked lips,

Slashed hips.

I manifest, I pray, I hope,

But I'm not perfect yet.

My body

I punish,

From my own dissatisfaction.

I got sucked into the feeling

Of decaying,

Deteriorating,

And destroying myself.

My body

Cannot fool me.

I will fall further

Into the mirror's reflection.

My biggest enemy,

Or my best friend.

My body

Is another's dream.

But to me,

A nightmare.

My body

Stumbles on flat flooring.

Woozy when standing still.

My body

Is crying,

But not from my eyes.

It begins to ache.

My heart racing,

My head dizzy,

My legs shaking.

My body,

Will it ever be perfect enough?