June 10, 2026
I have a confession.
I spent most of my life terrified of a bicycle.
Riti Fauzdar
2 min read
We all have something that scares us. For a long time, my biggest fear was a simple bicycle.
I have spina bifida. Because of my condition, balancing is a constant challenge, especially with my right leg. I walk with a distinct limp, which makes me a magnet for public attention. Over the years, countless strangers have stopped me to give unsolicited advice, assuming I have a knee problem, a sports injury, or whatnot.
When you grow up under that kind of microscope, you become incredibly self-conscious. You constantly worry about what people think when they see you struggle. Will they laugh, or will they encourage you? To protect myself from that judgment, I stayed away from bicycles. I convinced myself of a single rule: if I try to ride, I will fall, and if I fall, people will laugh.
My fear of being laughed at or looking awkward was so intense that, for a long time, I couldn't even bring myself to look at a bicycle. On the rare occasions I did try to ride, I wouldn't stop normally. Instead of slowing down and putting my foot on the ground like everyone else, I would completely jump off and scramble away from the bike. I did this just to ensure I wouldn't lose my balance and give onlookers a reason to stare or mock me.
Then came one fine Sunday. I woke up tired of letting fear dictate my movements and my freedom. I decided to confront the bicycle head-on.
My sister stood by me as my pillar of strength. I put my hands on the handlebars, my right leg shaking with anxiety and my heart racing. I sat on the seat, took a deep breath, and pushed off.
To my absolute surprise, I didn't fall. This time, I didn't have to jump off the bike in a panic.
The wheels kept turning, and I kept pedaling. I was moving forward. In that moment, I felt a massive wave of triumph and liberation. With every single pedal stroke, I felt like I was breaking free from a chain that had held me back for years.
I pedaled to nearby shops. To anyone watching, I was just running a mundane errand. To me, it was a massive victory.
Conquering that bike taught me invaluable lessons about myself. I learned that my fears are not permanent walls. They are just barriers that can be overcome with determination and perseverance. I realized that I am capable of accomplishing far more than I ever gave myself credit for.
Most importantly, I learned that the judgments of others should never limit my pursuit of happiness. The true value of that ride came from my own personal growth, proving that my condition doesn't define me; it has simply made me resilient.