365 DAYS OF WRITING

On January first, when I decided on a whim, that I wanted to write for 365 straight it was a magical moment. The sun hit my eye just the right way, just the right song was playing and there wasn't a red light in sight.

It didn't even feel like I came up with that idea but rather as if someone or something had inserted this thought into my brain. It felt brilliant and clearly I was out of my goddamn mind.

I needed a crutch. Something that would have me writing every single day. Something that would hold me accountable.

During the pandemic, I worked out for 100 days in a row. Just like with the 365 days of writing, I didn't plan on doing that. My goal was 21 days and since I thought that was doable I started to share those days on Instagram.

Every day I'd take a photo or a little video after my workout and share it in my stories. The payoff was that it kept me going. On top of it, I inspired others to start their own workout routine and that was pretty fucking fantastic.

So when this crazy idea of writing every day anchored in my otherwise very confused mind, I thought what better way to do it than on Medium, right!? It will hold me accountable and maybe I can get one or two others on board as well.

Here's The Thing

Writing every day is great. You hone your skills and get your creative juices going. However, publishing every day is a whole different animal and that's where the dog is buried.

When you set out to publish every day what you wrote, especially in the beginning, you will compromise your standards sooner or later.

I'm not saying that I usually am a gifted writer, by all means, I'm not, I do however have a couple of articles under my belt that I'm not ashamed to share. And those are the ones I compare everything to. I wish I didn't but here I am.

The Contemplation

The funny thing is, when I started this 365 day writing journey, I was so convinced the quality I'm putting out wouldn't bother me, that the only thing that would matter is that I am actually writing, yet only 12 days later, it does.

For as long as I have the balls to share my daily writing here, I will do so, but I will also look into finding a solution how I can keep holding myself accountable to write every day without publishing every day.

While I enjoy sharing my writing journey I cringe at lot. Plus I want to work on my fiction stuff rather sooner than later. The time I'm setting aside everyday to make a post is honestly taking away from moving forward with my projects. You see my dilemma?

For the past couple of days I've been contemplating to maybe bring back my old Instagram writing account. There I could just post a pic as a proof without having to actually share what I wrote.

I still want to publish articles but ones I can work on a bit longer than just an hour a day. At least until I get better at this whole thing.

If anyone has another idea on how I can merge accountability and quality, I'd be happy to hear it. Thank you!

Day 12… Done.