On random days when I should be studying for my exams, my brain knocks on my notes and gives me ridiculous(ly difficult ideas to sit down with — simply cause I am not in the mental space where I would generally be able to think profoundly) blog ideas.

Now, as a 29 myself (and mind you, I don't believe in astrology, so nothing in this blog will be related to zodiacs or planets). I often wonder what our birth dates could mean, or rather what they symbolize to me, what they make me feel. This idea actually stemmed from my thoughts about my own birthday last year, which led me to write a poem — where I mostly talked about my own birthdate in a sad undertone (I really be doin' depressed birthday girl shit at times) — which unfortunately I still feel I haven't finished. It keeps occurring to me that I need to add more, or that I can add more, or maybe more importantly — it deserves more of my attention. I will include it in this blog, later, or maybe some other one once I feel satisfied with the end result.

The following words are not pointed to anyone reading this; I don't even know your birthdate. These are just my feelings, opinions and not expert claims. Some aspects of this blog are fictional, while some aren't. Nothing negative will be entertained regarding this rambling of mine.

1 — The first born, the gold medal, the top scorer — every relevant title is attached to 1. The special one, could also be the isolated one. 'One' always stood out as an individual to me. It never felt like it had the capacity to be anything other than its own individual self — alone, singular, lonely. The top feels like the ecstatic fantasy (to people like me who seek perfection and good results rather than experiences) but is more like a burdensome reality, some times even lesser human.

2 — This number/date feels friendly, but just enough. You know, not like the golden retriever who is happy to see everyone but most likely like an old basset hound who only has the energy to be for a handful of people, and while walking up to them it might just stumble on its own ears, you never know. It feels like two googly eyes always looking out. But you never know if they are looking out for you or simply just looking for you, like it would suit a plushie or doll perfectly but then feel like Anabelle on the wrong one. It feels very particular about the people it sits with, the people it mingles with, and they might just be two in total.

3 — Sounds very negative to me for some reason. Although, this date feels adequately aligned for some things, like a countdown, trilogies, number of oranges I can eat in a sitting without feeling like it's too much. But then, some times, it's just the worst thing that can happen to me — a fork with three spears, a trio.

4 — (This one took me the longest to finalize, mostly cause I have never focused on this number too much) If I could choose an animal — since I am not able to relate them to the things within the human world — to represent 4, I would choose ducks. It just feels like the number 4s would waddle like ducks in their day-to-day life. Maybe 'quack' and attack a person or two, but mostly just waddle through life — no thoughts, just their webbed feet on the soil against this humanity. I am in no way saying they are not capable of violence — they just seem like they aren't.

5 — A perfectionist, ambitious and lowkey very royalty-vibes kind of person. They don't specifically need to have Rajputana-kingly or Prince-of-France-vibes, rather an entity of authority, carrying their forever domineering stance. This date reminds me of a rottweiler — but not a friendly one, they probably belong to a neighbor you don't get along with, so you know you have to stay away from their dog too.

6 — Sounds boring. Feels restless. A lot of times people mispronounce it as 'sex' (or maybe high-schoolers do that just to sound cool), but maybe that is more of a reason why it sounds uncool to me. It always reminds of listless beings. Like a dumb platypus who doesn't know what they want, where they are, who they are, what they need to do and most importantly they are stuck in that cycle — for, god knows, how long.

7 — I am already aware how people think of rainbows whenever 7 pops up. It's a good relation, really. People like rainbows — full of colors, full of possibilities, but not endless. There are only as many colors you can blend into with the 7 shades. It also makes me think of the 'theory of 7 minutes', or the '7 minutes in heaven' (scandalous, lol I know). Every important aspect of human life whether love, death, or sometimes even lust (not an important aspect but humans feel it regardless) seems to be connected to 7. It could be coincidental, cultural or maybe universal. It could be fate. It could be propaganda, you never know. There's only so much you can see beneath the darker shades like a mixture of blue and purple, so there might not be everything about 7 that you would know, or even wish to understand. This date gives me a sadly sensuous vibe at times, but restricted at others.

8 — They sound sweet, friendly, caring, verbose. I have these major cutie vibes from Ǝ' maybe cause it has two circles — it reminds me of Doraemon (गोल-सा बनाओ, गोल-सा बनाओ | गुलदान में फिर कील को उगाओ, प्यार से उगाओ….damn I miss those days), silly little blue robot cat who pulls gadgets from its magically resourceful belly. If I also had to denote a color to 8, it would probably be orange — like the orange flavored ice-cream my tongue got stuck on once. I always think their eyes will be the cutest aspect of them.

9 — Sounds very punctual, well-educated person. Nine has a certain urgency to it, a certain demand to mint more and more money and maybe more money. They sound like they might be a little opposite to 8 in the sense that they'll weigh their words and use them very very miserly. I could've said that they will be careful with their words, but they just seem very frugal with it. Rather than saying the right thing, they feel like they would choose to not say anything, cause being overly educated gives them the idea that everyone else is not worth talking to, you know what I mean… It's like, talking will cost them money.

10 — It just sounds right, you know? Is a multiple of 5, an even number — just sounds right. I could give you 10 cents just for agreeing to that lol. But jokes apart, it just feels easy and comfortable, maybe a little accessible, and unbiased too. I imagine these birthdates would make my heart feel ten pounds lighter. WHY ??? Cause it's 10. It's legit 10. 10/10.

I feel that's enough rambling for one blog. I usually get carried away in my thoughts and end up writing too much. The other dates will be included in the next blog or whenever I feel like writing the next part.

Stay healthy and stay happy 💜🌟💜

XOXO