I have faith that the meaning of life is to be tady a teď. I choose to be at peace by living in the now. This is a life-long commitment to me and my children. Odevzdávám se a jsem v proudu.

Worrying is pointless — I accept the risk and fuck it. OCD manifests itself in the questions I ask myself, and I choose not to be OCD by not engaging with them. Neřeš. There is never any need to explain or reassure myself — that is OCD, and acting out always makes it worse. I can't solve my OCD by thinking or exhorting myself to behave. Wu wei.

The core of my fears is that I am bad. But the question is OCD — who cares? Přijímám sám sebe a svou minulost. I know and like who I am.

There is no difference in the substantive content of my intrusive thoughts. They are just things that scare me. I am not my thoughts and there is no problem if I have intrusions. I don't want to engage with them or try to neutralize them — what is the point? — they are just fears. OCD behaviour is neither useful nor moral. I respond to genuine risks or mistakes in healthy, adaptive ways.

I am simply human. I forgive myself for my mistakes and treat myself with kindness. I accept the grey areas and do not attribute too much significance to isolated events, thoughts or actions. The answer to most OCD questions is simply no or it won't. But that is not the point — the questions are OCD, and the answers don't matter.