"I let go of my claim on you, it's a free world You look down on where you came from sometimes But you'll have this place to call home, always." — Godspeed, Frank Ocean

I hope this is the last post I'll ever be writing about you, but I guess only time will reveal.

I know I don't make it apparent, but I've missed you a lot, especially on occasions when you're just an arm's length away but it feels like an eternity between us, mocking me every single time of how far apart we've drifted day by day.

I was listening to Frank Ocean's "Godspeed" when I thought about you, and no matter how awkwardly and badly we fell apart, I do indeed want to wish you godspeed in your journey without me in the picture.

The term "godspeed" is a wish for a prosperous and successful start of a new journey one embarks on, and it obviously has religious connotations behind its origin. This fact somehow makes me happy, as I know you're a religious person.

Once, you jokingly mentioned that since we're both brought up in different religions, either one of us would have to convert if we were a thing. We never did get to that bit, and I never did figure out my question to that answer until tonight. If it means I have to believe in your God for me to fully extent the meaning of this sentiment to you, then count me in.

I want to really let go on my emotional claim on you this whole time, as you're a free person, and it isn't fair to you if I kept you prisoner in my mind when we're clearly impossible in reality.

I want to entrust you in God's arms, as I truly believe that He'll guide you to great things you're intended to experience. I no longer want to fret and worry about you anymore, nor do I want to be attached to the version of you I loved so much, but that no longer exists.

May your journey without me be smooth-sailing and may you always have the guidance you need to tread murky waters. I hope you're happy, healthy and prosperous in your journey, but selfishly please don't tell me about it.

Wishing you godspeed, J. I hope we both have happy days ahead of us. :)