The Healing Butterfly-ASCENSION

"People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own souls. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious." ― Carl Jung, Psychology and Alchemy

Timothy Key has been publishing a daily feature that highlights ongoing writing challenges, provides a handy Daily Tip for all Medium writers, provides an opportunity for collaboration ILLUMINATION.

Tim asked us to contribute to prompts. So, when I heard someone say: "Then, something weird happened…" in a podcast — I knew it would be a great one.

I could write about many experiences, but I chose the story that was the most life-altering — by far. This is the prelude to the main story:

This is a story of how my Kundalini cracked open on me in two separate events, 3 years apart, paving the way to the main event.

What Are You?

Throughout most of my life, I didn't know what my body was doing, what I was doing, who I was, or what my purpose was besides being miserable.​ Life was very confusing, my body made it that way — at the same time —

I always;

KNEW THINGS. FELT CONNECTED, FELT PROTECTED, FELT GUIDED, FELT THE LOVE.

However, life was still extremely difficult.

Especially being so sick most of my life, diagnosed with Fibromyalgia at 25 after lifelong UNEXPLAINABLE physical issues — serious ones.​ Physical problems from the age of 1-year-old. ​

Correlating the psychic abilities with the physical issues I had all of my life would take DECADES for me, as I started receiving and delivering messages for groups of people as a very young child — at the age of 5.

When I was 9, my body began to hurt all of the time in different places causing different reactions. I had very serious stomach/digestive issues started at the age of 12 to very serious headache/brain issues that were unexplainable starting around age 16.

At the age of 25, I was finally diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, which I get into more in the main story.

Kundalini Stroked

Eventually, my serious body and energy issues even involved strokes when I was 36 and 39.

The "strokes" that hit both sides of my body were difficult for the medical community to explain, later I would understand that that too, was Energy related.

It was my Kundalini Awakening to be exact-something hospitals know nothing about and help make the situation worse because of their ignorance. It's not their fault, most people don't know about this. That's why these stories are important, and why I've dug deep to tell them.

Here is another story about The Kundalini Energy that I found here on Medium that goes into great detail about what it is, how to work with it to hopefully have it do its magic and be released one day through intention — but only talks briefly about how it can "just happen" to someone who's not trying at all, who's ignorant to it — like I was.

It is rare, but when it's time — it's time, even if it's through earth-shattering pain…The spontaneous and rare "cracking open" and unleashing of the Kundalini Energy.​

This force of energy is meant to light up the Divine Spark of Connection, help us drop away the illusion of separation, connect us with our Divine Feminine (both sexes have the Divine Feminine & Divine Masculine) within us, especially supercharge our 3rd Eye/Pineal Gland & Crown Chakras, help us "listen" to guidance better, etc, etc. But it affects the entire body, setting off activations system-wide as this story will illustrate.

It happened in two separate stages, years apart. The first in 2009 and the second in 2012. I was not prepared, and I wouldn't even know what that was for several years-way after the fact.​

People strive through meditation and yoga practice to have this happen.

Why?

Connection.

​Once this energy is released and activates all of your Chakras, but especially your 3rd eye-the chakra in your brain, and it's also called The Pineal Glad. When full activated, you can "see" like never before, connect to the Spiritual Realm like never before and know yourself (and others) like never before. ​

But sometimes it is "spontaneous" which means that the person didn't try, it just happens because it's time. This is not an ideal situation.

The Kundalini experience really made my body go into shock energetically, and because I was completely oblivious to it, it made things worse. Much worse.

I woke up in the middle of the night in 2009, to this wave of energy going up my body from my feet, and once it reached my head, I saw white and passed out.

When I woke up hours later to my alarm, I was not OK. I sort of "forgot" what happened in the middle of the night and went to the bathroom to find my legs not working properly — then remembering the odd event I had woken up to.

I was right back there, remembering that surge of energy take over my body, and then knocking me out — hard.

But I was used to feeling like crap, been living it my entire life, and having weird things happen, so I didn't let it stop me from taking my child the 20 miles to school and planning on another 40+ to work…

Shortly after getting on the freeway, I knew something was extremely different, my head and face tingled like it never did before and I was on the phone with my neurologist who referred me to the hospital when I told him what was going on. By the time I got home, and my friend showed up to take me to the ER, I was in a rapid decline.

She took one look at my developing crooked smile and said, "I think you had a stroke," and tried not to cry, but did a really bad job of it.

My face was already not normal at that point-had been tingling for days where it eventually tweaked, my eyes extremely sensitive to light-way more than they always were, and in general, I felt not "right" for several days before the event.

It was getting harder and harder to sound normal, my brain was not working properly and all I kept thinking was "reboot" but it meant nothing to me.

​She Got There Just In Time

Over the next 20 minutes, I would not be able to walk, and my face was 100% tweaked out totally numb and when I talked it wasn't moving with the rest of my mouth like is typical for stroke victims, my inner dialog and cognitive function were normal but expressing that was another story.

I definitely came off as someone who had serious cognitive issues — but I really didn't.

When the doctor at the ER turned to my friend after I described what had happened he said, "Was she always mentally challenged?" She lost it.

​Not a single doctor I saw had any idea of what was REALLY HAPPENING.

Once again — I was a mystery. Oh, the stories I could tell.

It really confused them when both sides of my body were affected. It was my right side with my face, but my left side was impossible for me to move, but I could move my left arm and leg, but they were weak.

Truly the worst part was that it set off the Fibromyalgia in a ferocious way that I had managed for months, landing me back on disability (for the 2nd to last time). At the time I had been one of two Operations Managers at a huge Veterinary hospital, pushing a Fibro body to 65+ hours per week and 100-mile car rides when I had my son.

I would eventually leave that life and stay on disability and part-time work at Staples in their Copy & Print department. I hadn't realized how energetically challenging working in a veterinary hospital was for me for all of those 7 years that I did it, but it was. At the same time, I was really able to connect with animals in a much broader way than with just my own, so this was incredible training for me.

I found that over time I would be able to predict what results of diagnostics when it was a question of what was wrong — which was most of would be and really know what the animals were feeling. I spent a lot of time with them as they crossed over too, as I was the one always picked for those appointments.

While they were heavy, I do not have a problem with death, or see it as an ending — but truly a transition. I was chosen to be there to help the human, and their sadness for losing a friend and for the animal crossing over, to have more light around them and ease the pull and pain coming from their human companions. Over the course of the 7 years, I was in the field, I was probably in the room for about 100 euthanasia's.

I never really gave it much thought at the time, it was later that I was shown by my guides that being there at those moments was good for all of us, something that I'm naturally good at and meant to help with is Soul's transitioning.

Since then, I have stumbled upon dying animals many times — either to save them — heal them or to help them transition. I've accepted this role in life, and now, eventually knowing my Soul story history, it makes perfect sense. I've always been one to help transition Soul's as well as communicate with them once they are they have crossed over. I feel very blessed to be able to do so.

I would think about what it was like to leave the body, there were many times when I was jealous of the animals, that they could leave. I thought about it a lot, especially after the 2nd Kundalini "cracking open" in 2012.

Kundalini Part 2

This one was very different than the first one with the strokes-but still a head thing — big time.

It was my early day of the week at Staples, Wednesday was my day to open — starting work at 6. I loved the early shift, usually, no problem waking up at 4 am to get there.

That day though, I felt off-I was extra tired for days and the feeling just grew and grew, eventually my head felt so odd, heavy, pressure, headache, eye disturbances, a headache that I needed to leave work early for because it was only getting worse, nothing was helping.

I would end up going to the ER about 5 times in the month, being admitted every time, the headache was so bad nothing helped besides morphine when I was there. I had several MRI's and they all showed no tumors, which is what they are looking for. They can't see and aren't looking for what's happening electrically.

​I had a four-week long "headache from hell" that only morphine helped.

I even got a prescription of it, but the pills were different than the drip at the hospital.

It gave me horrible night sweats, nightmares, constipation, which at one point in my 2nd month, caused a tear on my colon that landed me in the hospital with blood shooting out of my butt like a high-pressure hose.

It was like a horror movie, it hurt worse than most anything I experienced and I was in the ICU for 4 days total. Bleeding non-stop, requiring constant care for two days, required 4 blood transfusions and a lot of misery. I truly wanted to die.

Eventually, I would recover from all of the above, and just had to deal with the usual horrible Fibromyalgia, and I would not go back to Staples. Instead, I found a job working from home for a friend.

Soon, I realized the secret to maintaining my health to a degree was being home all of the time. Not working outside with the general population was good for me, although I still didn't know why.

Let Us Be Gone

Most people knew how sick I was, but they didn't understand how desperate to escape the viciousness of my existence was. ​I fantasized about different ways to kill myself a lot.

I wanted release from my body and a hellish painful, lonely, broken life. I truly believe this is what really sparked my Awakening, even though I had been through major upgrades through those Kundalini events, my body was so wrecked by it that I was living in 2 worlds — the physical for me was torture, and the pull to the other side was so enticing. Ending this life sounded more and more like a good idea. ​

When you want to kill yourself, but you're meant to heal people and bring Light into the world, your Spirit Tribe tends to take over, at least they'll do whatever they can to get you to see what is the truth.

This feeling of being suicidal wasn't exclusive to how things were for me after The Kundalini, but before too-it just got more intense. Living on both sides was tough.​ After the 2nd event happened in 2012, I was half in and half out of understanding things about my life.

I could really see things and the patterns and the point in the high levels of duality there, how things were interconnected, and also the entire point of many of the "bad" things in my life and what was their purpose, as I was also becoming more in tune with My Spirit Tribe — even though I was largely unaware of the mechanics of the process, I was aware that I and things were changing.

Instead of a one-way conversation (that could be easily ignored), it became more and more of an obvious two way street of information going both ways. Associating with others was really difficult after a certain point (even more so than how it was all of my life) because as I became more and more telepathic and psychic, I could sense people and their motivations, truths, and denials and lies better than ever. I knew people weren't truthful, but the extent of how often people avoid, lie, or deny is truly outrageous.

Those abilities were always good, but I wasn't strong enough to trust what I knew and information that came 100% of the time, and a lot of the time I didn't want to know.​ But as my abilities grew, it reached a point of infallibility — if not misunderstandings, or riddles that take more skill and several pieces of information, messages, symbols, codes, etc. And, I was getting constant validation from my Spirit Tribe and the events that would follow.​

Now I know that a lot of these experiences were to train me, to prepare me for the work I am to do. ​ But, when I was so sick, life seemed like a pointless battle I was just surviving, I truly didn't see the point-despite having a child and animals that I loved — thoughts of suicide weaved it's ways through my days more and more, life was a horrible cluster fuck of a horror show and I didn't see the point. Plus, I was always dealing with the most intense physical issues and as time went on — they only got more intense, as I've noted.

Year-long State Disability many times, in so much pain and physical distress that the simplest of things were so difficult, I was unable to work regular jobs anymore, or have any social life and be around people — I felt it was unfair, letting people down because I couldn't follow through, letting go of many friendships as I went from one life to another, and not making new friends because I never saw the point in that either, but I really didn't want to die…I wanted a different life but saw no way to attain it.

However, with what little spark I had, I was guided to The GAIA network and began doing yoga at home, and it really helped a lot. I was losing weight at a rapid pace and feeling much better over the course of a couple of months.

Then came the day I did one particular meditation…Life — forever shifted.

❤︎ Thanks for reading my story!

Infiniti is a Lightworker, Psychic Physical Empath, Medical Medium, Natural Born Quantum Distance Healer, Psychic Advisor, Channel, Medium, Pet Psychic & Healer, Soul Guide, Spiritual Liaison & Ascension Coach. Once living constant pain, now she eliminates pain in others! Discover: The Healing Butterfly.org

Be guided today, and always Live In Love.

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