I held a scream
Behind clenched teeth,
Rocked myself in the corner of a room
too quiet for a soul this loud in pain.
I said "I'm Fine" while my heart curled up like wilted paper burned at the edges,
brittle with unsaid words.
My pillow knows the sound of drowning.
My blanket a witness to wars I never started but keep surviving.
I keep whispering
"one more day"
like a spell,
Like a desperate wish not to fall apart before the morning forgets me.
There is no villain here but silence.
No audience, but shadows.
And still, I show up.
With trembling hands and cracked voice,
I exist
Even when it hurts.
Especially when it hurts. I'm still here.
And maybe,
That's the bravest thing
I've done.