My entire life, I have had a very hard time finding a relationship with someone who I connect with on a soul level. I've never experienced being in love but I always knew that I would find my person eventually. After my spiritual awakening a few years ago, I stopped dating. I felt like I needed to be alone and when I started to date again, I wasn't meeting the right match. At this point, I have surrendered. I haven't given up, I just trust God more than anyone. In Arabic, we have a saying called Maktub which means "written". What is written for you will find you.

As someone who's on a spiritual path, relationships can be pretty challenging because we need someone who vibrates on the same level as us. Someone who challenges us intellectually and helps us grow, someone who shares the same values as us and who we can connect with emotionally. The list goes on and on. As a 29-year-old woman approaching my 30s, I always get the question of when I'm getting married and having kids. Hopefully when I stop getting curveballs thrown at me! Haha, just kidding. As much as I want to fulfill that and I've put in the effort, it's just not my time right now. God has instructed me to be patient. I am a pink starburst and I won't be settling until I meet my soulmate.

In the past few years, I have focused on becoming the best version of myself. I needed to heal my traumas and become a better person so that when someone comes into my life, I won't take my shit out on them. I think the reason why a lot of us haven't met the one, our soulmate, life partner, husband, wife, whatever you want to call it, is because we have some lessons to learn. Those can be karmic or life lessons. For example, when I was younger, I sought way too much validation from people. I also had an anxious attachment style that I had to heal. If you want to learn more about attachment styles, read the book "Attached" by Amir Levine. One of the life lessons I had to learn was to love myself and give myself the love and care that I give to people.

The best saying I've heard is "Once you do what you love, you'll find who you love". It was something along those lines. I'll give you an example, maybe you're currently in a job that you don't like and isn't your purpose. You're just doing it to pay the bills. Maybe you're going through a temporary period where you're meeting temporary people. Maybe you're set up to do something greater than your current career and once you step into that, you'll meet the right people in your life. What if you and your person are supposed to work on a similar goal or purpose together? This is why you should step out of your comfort zone because you'll attract the right opportunities that'll help you grow. The right energy will help us attract the people, places, and things that are meant to be in our life. What if God is making you wait because he's preparing your environment? Just like God created Adam, prepared his environment, then brought him Eve. What if God wants you to be alone so that you can love yourself more and develop faith in him?

I'd like to share a prayer that my aunt taught me when dating someone. It works every time.

Dear God, if this man/woman is a good person and is meant to be on my future path, please keep them in my life. If they're a bad person and are blocking me from meeting my future partner, please remove them from my life.