Monthly Yiospaper #1

#1: January

Nggak, nggak aku minta subscribe gramedia digital koran bulanan beneran, kok, sayang. Tapii, memang betul idenya dari koran bulanan

Padahal koran tuh harian? TAPI ANGGEP AJA BULANAN (Yes, I make the rules!)

Jadi, seperti namanya yang udah keliatan banget naksirnya itu, ini koran bulanan Yio. I will write everything that happens to my Yio from my POV. "Lah, emang Kakak inget aku ngapain aja? Aku tadi makan apa aja lupa" Inget dong. Aku nyatet semuanya tauu HAHAHAH. Notes hpku isinya kamu. (Aku suka)

Udahan, segitu aja pembukaannya. Welcome to my January Yiospaper, Adek sayang. Bacanya pas nggak sibuk ajaaa. Happy reading? :3

Selamat tanggal delapan yang pertama, sayangku Yio. Aku sayang kamu banget banget banget. Selamat membaca gedebak-gedebuk Januari kemarin dari POV Kakak. Janji nggak ngolokin aku? Spoiler: Lagi-lagi aku naksir. Tapi bukannya seluruh dunia udah TAU.

Nah, kebanyakan pembukaannya.

#intinyabel: Monthly Yiospaper #1

Biasanya kalau ganti tahun tuh excitednya pas mau jam duabelas aja, sisanya balik lemes. "Now what?" Besok tanggal dua balik kerja lagi. Gedebak-gedebuk lagi. Diinjek orang-orang karena dianggap punching bag marah-marah aja, gajian, bayar ini itu, kerja lagi dan gitu terus sampai gajian berikutnya.

How'd I get so lucky that everything is completely different this year?

Mau jam duabelas selain excited, aku juga degdegan mampus? KENAPA SIH AKU IYAKAN AJAKAN FOOD DATE DAN NOBARNYA GIMANA KALAU TAHUN BARU ADA BERITA ORANG PINGSAN KARENA TERLALU DAGDIGDUG (aku). I would never say no to her. Not that I want to reject her offer either. Malah sebenernya aku yang pengen? Tapi ini harusnya aku tenang gak sih.

Abel, apa kabar image kamu itu, Bel.

Kayaknya semaleman itu aku tarik napas mulu. Takut kelepasan keliatan banget naksirnya. Aku rasa dia juga tau dan dia juga naksir? I'm not reallybsure. Gagal fokus ke semuanya di malem tahun baru itu. She's adorable. I like her a lot. I like her so much that I need to calm myself down. What if I poured everything out and she run away? Tahan, Abel.

Tebak-tebakan, emangnya bisa tahan? Nggak lah. Nggak mau juga. GIMANA SIH CARA NAHAN DAN TENANG APAKAH DIJUAL DI RUMAH MAKAN PADANG (mau aku hindari).

Paginya kita call lagi dan I swear, I'm so deeply in love with her. Jantungku kayak mau copot pas dia angkat telponnya. How is it possible for someone to be THAT adorable right after she woke up? Aku juga udah gak bisa stecu, kalem, apalah MANA BISA. Aku udah kangen. Sayangnya, aku harus overtime dan harus matiin telponnya. I'd love to listen to her for the rest of my life, though. I like her a lot. Seharian itu aku overtime sambil nyengir.

Halo, Bapak-bapak dan Ibu-ibu sekalian. Boleh semuanya ngamuk. Energi saya udah 3000% udah diisi sama si imut itu. (Beneran lagi semua ngamuk di call?)

Setelah itu rasanya aku makin naksir setiap hari dan makin gregetan? KENAPA SIH NGGAK DITERIMA AKU NEMBAKNYA AKU MAU PACARAAAAAAAN. Ada kali aku nembak sepuluh kali, bahkan langsung by call tapi dia minta tunggu.

I'd wait, really. For as long as she needs, tapi kayak, ADUH. I'm yours already? Don't you want to have me? Punya kamu ini akunya?

Ternyata, saudara-saudara yang berbahagia (aku yang bahagia besar). Kita jadian tanggal delapan!!!!!! DAN ANAKNYA YANG NEMBAK HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH LUCU BANGET LAGI?

Aku udah lama banget nggak ditembak orang jadi pas liat itu jantungku mau copot. I know she'd ask me out eventually, tapi tetep bikin DEG? Apalagi, dia nembak setelah gedebak-gedebuk acara di tempat KKNnya. The effort? I like her, a lot. I feel so loved.

Tapi aku gak KUAT JIR MAAF AKU HARUS DENGER LANGSUNG KALAU KITA PACARAN (aku call) (aslinya aku kangen juga)

There's something in her voice that draws me in. Suaranya lucu, manis dan cukup bikin aku jatuh cinta. Entah sudah berapa kali aku jatuh cinta setiap kita ngobrol tapi kayaknya cintaku makin besar deh? Gimana kalau aku menyaingi laut dan aku bikin laut sendiri LALU KEMUDIAN AKU BANGUN JEMBATAN BALIKPAPAN-SOLO BIAR BISA LANGSUNG AKU CIUM ORANG LUCU ITU

Tenang, Abel.

I'm the happiest person on earth pas dia bilang kita pacaran. Kita. Pacaran. KITA!!!! PACARAN!!!!! HOREEEEEEE!!!!!! LIFE IS GOOOOOOD I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!

Setelah itu, aku nyengir mulu. Lama-lama kering gigiku.

Pacaran era yang sangat safe and full of affection. Aku sayang Yio.

Anaknya selalu ngabarin over little things that happened in her life and whenever she does that, I feel so loved. Aku sayang Yio. Ada tuh, dia family trip walaupun sepupunya pada gak ikut, dia tetep ikut walaupun bengong doang (She's adorable, I love her.)

Bulan Januari tuh Yio lagi heboh-hebohnya main genshin BENERAN DIA DIKERJAIN HOYO KASIAN BANGET? Emang Hoyo kampret sih tapi ya jangan ke cewekku juga? Halo? Dawei?

Tapii, anaknya bakal ngamok kalau dia tau ini sih BUT ACTUALLY WHENEVER SHE SULKS AKU JATUH CINTA LAGI HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Aduh, aku ikut :( tapi pas dia ngomel aku :3 GIMANA YA… She's adorable? I can't help it. Aku sayang Yio.

Kita beberapa kali call sebelum aku bobo. Especially pas dia nguli primo dan aku ngerajut. I fell in love again. Aku suka dia. Tiap dia panik dikejer monster di genshin, aku nyengir HAHAHAH. I love her a lot. Ada beberapa kali rasanya aku pengen diem aja waktu dia panik digebukin monster just to hear her sulk dan manggilin aku. Have I ever told you that I love it whenever she calls me "Sayang" dan "Kakak"?

Whenever she does that, I melt right away.

Aku sayang Yio

Ada tuh kita sleepcall sampai pagi. Aku ngerajut dan dia bobo. Aku nggak pernah sedegdegan itu dengerin orang tidur peacefully. Padahal malemnya kita call juga, nobar drakor dan nemenin dia makan tapi pas dia tidur aku nggak mau matiin callnya. Aku sayang Yio. I love loving her.

MANA TUH YA, ANAKNYA GEDEBAK-GEDEBUK PAS SUBUH. Aku manggilin namanya tapi nggak bangun. Khawatir dikit dia gelinding ke bawah lantai jujur. Untungnya gapapa? Waktu dia tidur itu, sebenernya aku ada ngomong (sengaja pas dia nggak denger). Aku malu dan jujur takut AKU YANG PINGSAN I feel like my heart is about to explode. Adalah pokoknya (fullnya biarkan hanya aku dan benang rajutku yang tau)

For the rest of January, selain digebukin genshin, Yio juga digebukin tugas akhir skrimpi. Kenapa dosbingnya selalu mempersulit BUUU AWAS DIBALES DI AKHIRAT BUU? (Aku yang bales) But the thing about Yio that I really love is, she's honest with what she feels. Walaupun pelan-pelan ngomongnya, I love that she's comfortable enough to share her worries with me. I'm saaad that I can only give reassurance through both call and by text. I would love to just hug her after bimbingan, though. I would caresses her hair and tell her that she did well. I'm always proud of everything she does. Walaupun menurut dia bukan apa-apa, I'll still tell her that she did well. In fact, she really did well.

I want to love her wholly. I will love her whenever she's feeling over the moon and whenever she feels like the whole world is against her. I want to love her in her lowest, when breathing becomes extremely heavy, when being alive feels like a torture. I want and I will love her in every chapter of her life. Kemarin, sekarang dan seterusnya

Aku sayang Yio.

Aku kadang suka ngerasa apa aku kebanyakan ngomong ya? Will she feel burdened that I care for her a lot? Aku kalau ceramah BIKIN DIA GAPAPA GAK YA ANJAY ABEL DIEM????? I really hope I can help her even though it might be just a tiiiiiiny bit of help. I hope she'll breathe easier with me around.

Aku sayang Yio.

I feel safe whenever she's around. Work has always been so heavy and I feel like crying whenever I'm on my way. Tekanan sana-sini, saudara-saudaraku yang merengek, ekspektasi orang-orang ke aku karena aku yang pegang semuanya. It's suffocating. Tapi, setiap aku duduk di sofa dan buka hp, liat Yio cerita ini itu. My heart is full again. I don't feel like the world is too heavy for me again. I feel like being alive is rather a good thing. I want to be alive again.

She has no idea how much she has calmed me down after a long day with just being there, existing. Yio saves my days a lot and I am very grateful for that. Aku pernah bilang ke dia, she's my favorite part of the day. I meant it. She's my favorite part of the day.

I want both of us to eat well. To live and to breathe easier every single day.

I've told her that she's like the moon. There's a lot of stars in the sky but there's only one moon. Can I be the star? Let me be the one who's going to take care of her well. Like a thousand stars in the sky, I hope the moon knows that she's loved, wholly.

Selamat tanggal delapan, Yio sayang. I hope the world, especially the sky, is kinder to both of us in February. Tenang, kayak bintang yang nggak cuma satu. Aku juga punya seribu cara buat menghalau gedebak-gedebuk dunia. You can stay where you are, my moon. I'll roam around in the sky. Whether it's rain or even, storms in the sky. Rest assured. You have me. It'll be okay. Let me take care of you, ya? I love you, a lot.

Panjang juga tuh aku liat-liat. Sekali lagi, selamat tanggal delapan yang pertama, cantikku. Sampai ketemu di Yiospaper bulan depan? Hehe. See you!

ㅡ Yours, Abel.