DAILY BLOG | SPIRITUAL AWAKENING | RELATIONSHIPS | SEX

Update: As I sat in meditation this morning, I thought to add something here. Even if you have not found the one, it is important to be open. If you vibe with someone, have fun! Don't close yourself off completely; be free, enjoy this life, and love deeply (even if it is short-term).

Before my spiritual awakening

I am an open book on my spiritual journey. I do not see much on spiritual awakening and its effects on our sex lives. So I thought I would blog about it today. I hope this blog leads to an open discussion. I feel it is critical to discuss these uncomfortable topics. That way, we know we are not alone. We are all in this together.

Before my spiritual awakening, I had never been in a serious romantic relationship. However, I did have sex partners. Like drinking and partying, I used sex to fill my inner void. After sex, I still felt empty or worse. Mostly because I had a difficult time connecting with those partners.

It wasn't that they were all bad people; I didn't feel the deep connection I craved. In fact, I would not allow them to look into my eyes. I always struggled in that area. I realized it was because I didn't want them to connect on a soul level. I subconsciously knew they weren't the ones.

The reasons I am celibate

Today, I realized I am celibate, but it was unplanned. It just happened organically. It makes sense because all other areas of my life have changed. Now, of course, I sometimes get hot and bothered, but overall my desire for meaningless sex has vanished.

As I sat and pondered this today, I realized that celibacy on my spiritual journey happened for four main reasons. Please note I am not against sex or intimacy. I am an advocate for sexual freedom and exploration. Below I outline the reasons I believe celibacy happened naturally after my awakening.

Intimacy does not equal sex

In our world, intimacy often means sex. This is untrue; one can have an intimate relationship without being physical. Additionally, one can have a close relationship with oneself. I understand this deeply because I am experiencing it daily.

As I started to heal, I formed a deep intimacy with Self. That connection with Self filled the inner void I once had. Meditation, reading, dancing, or sitting in nature are all activities I participate in alone. When I perform those activities, I feel at peace and more connected to Self and the Universe. Because of this, I no longer have the desire to seek romantic relations with those that do not align with me.

I need to protect my energy

Another reason I no longer have sexual relations is to protect my energy. As mentioned in this blog, I work daily to guard my high vibrational energy. So having meaningless sex with random people no longer appeals to me. In all honesty. I only did it because I needed something to make me feel alive and to temporarily dull the pain trapped inside.

At the beginning of my journey, I had a sex partner. Every time we were intimate, I felt drained, upset, and miserable. This guy was not operating on my frequency. When he would visit, all my light vanished. I would become a completely different person. Seeing how he affected me was a clear sign to stay away from low energy. It would take days to get myself back into the light when he left. It isn't worth it.

The one is worth waiting for

For most of my life, I went to bed alone and woke up alone. Honestly, I had given up. I truly did not believe I would ever find someone that understood or deeply connected with me. It left me hopeless and sometimes frustrated. After many years, I concluded that I would never have a spouse, children, or someone to walk with me on this journey.

My spiritualist said I have been alone for many lifetimes and have never had children. She explained I had issues connecting with others romantically, would not settle, and craved a deep connection. She said I was all spiritual, no intimacy. I was grateful for our session because I had been struggling with letting people in, even more after my awakening.

Basically, I was falling into the same trap — all spirituality, no romance.

I know it sounds sad — and it was heartbreaking. But don't pull out the tissue box just yet. Things are different now. After all these lifetimes, I am finally at a place to love and be loved. It is an unexplainable feeling, but I know he is here. One day I woke up, and I could feel him. My willingness to do the inner work, protect my energy, and love deeply has brought us into alignment. The rest is up to the Universe.

I no longer have the desire

The cravings for the pleasurable things of the 3D world are no longer appealing. Today the idea of going to a nightclub to find a hookup is not even on my radar. The emotional attachment to those things vanished as I continued to evolve, and codependency was replaced with self-love.

My loves, please understand that I am not bashing you if you still crave these things. I know this is a journey, and it has many challenges. In fact, I have to work hard daily to hold my light. This spiritual journey is a daily grind honey! But seriously, stay the course, keep positive, and love deeply. I believe when we do that, we will bring in our true love through our high vibrations.

© Ari Love, 2022