"And physcologits call it spotlight effect"

sometimes we really spend whole of our life thinking and fighting up with our internal turmoil of what people are thinking of us?

we just become our own enemy,we make ourselves the spotlight of everything and this is where the doubt begins!

I think that I have spent half of my life wearing a pretentious mask that might feel good when looked from outside but heavily uncomfortable for me and thats because of the urge to be fit into people's spaces and to win them.

I always kept thinking so much about every detail I own- the dress I wore,the way I speak,the way I interact,the way I approach people,the way I put up my opinions ,the way I sit or even about the smallest mark I have on my body.

my mind always kept brewing about what will they think about me ,what they will be discussing about me,what weird thing will they be pointing out from me,how will they judge my opinions and so on.

But on the other side that not really true — nobody has the damn time to make you the centre of their life and keep discussing you for the rest of their day.Its you who makes your appearance question this much rather than being free and simply be who you are confidently.